May 17, 2021•510 words
Welp, it's been almost two months since the last update. I genuinely didn't want to wait this long between updates but time just passed me by. I'd say there are two main reasons for this: procrastination and an unnecessary mindset towards this blog. I've been bad with time management for as long as I can remember, not cripplingly bad, but still rather terrible. Once I was well into my university days, I realized I needed to make a change and decided to adopt a simple time management system. It worked wonders for me and I felt so stress-free for the first time in my academic career. However, discipline is also something that I need to work at. I could have good time management practices every day for months, but just one off-day was enough to break my momentum and revert back to my old ways. I faced a similar situation with the blog. I originally set a goal to post every week, but without a time management system in place, I was almost guaranteed to fail.
It was also that I set pretty lofty aspirations for this blog - for no reason at all. I mentioned wanted to stop being a mindless consumer of media and actually contribute something - which I still want to do! It's just that I realized that ideas and inspiration came very rarely and the act of finding them felt like work, which I absolutely don't want this to become. Writing this blog should be relaxing and fun. A way to condense, and materialize the streams of incoherent thoughts in my mind into one cohesive statement. I just think doing that weekly is something I have to work towards. Forcing myself to write will only produce the exact opposite results of what O want. To that end, I've also started reading more. I came to the conclusion that it wasn't just the quantity of media I was consuming that was a problem - but the quality as well. I've had some interest in political theory for a while and purchased a few books that interest me on that topic. Who knows? Maybe I'll make a post on that soon!
Other than that, I didn't really have anything planned for this post. It was mainly to break the cycle of procrastination that I've enabled and get back into writing. I've additionally decided that I'll write about more casual topics, such as events that happened in my daily life here and then. I think the initial seriousness of all the posts I had planned played a big factor in me putting this off day after day. For instance, I got a job! I was really lucky and got a sweet DE job right after graduation. I'm still very new but hopefully, I'll have interesting stories to talk about that on that front eventually. It really felt good to get this off my chest and actually post. Now I just need to make sure I don't wait another month or two to update. Wish me luck.